Glad that I met him. I adore his style since before I met him personally. I heard over on his stories from one of his colleague. A man that always protect his Deen. He never showed even once that he is a 'waraq' man. From her appearance, u wouldn’t think he is ‘waraq’. Once u knew him, then u will know how good is he.
I tried to improve myself so that he will look at me. From that time, I learned back how to perform an almost perfect solah. Everyday I bring along the ‘Cara-cara Solat untuk Wanita’ book. It’s quite shame to learn back right? But better than never. Now, I’m grateful that I almost know all the meaning for every movement in my solah. Alhamdulillah.
I also started to read iluvislam.com in order to get me tougher from the Nafs of wanted to getting married early. It’s just because of seeing other people happy with their couple, so it increase my jealousy. I wasn’t supposed to do that right?
During my semester, my keIstiqamahan went down a bit because I did not meet him even once. I always postponed my solah. I feel bad because I changed to a better person just for the purpose of getting his attention towards me.
Now, I’m working. I have plenty of time since I’m not committed to study anymore. My work ends right after working hours end. I have extra hours before night arrived, so can hang out with them.
Every time in my last sujud I will pray to Allah to let me be part of his life. I do not know whether is it ok to ask for that or not but at least I tried. I really hope because it’s hard to find a man like him. Not a smoker and always try to improve himself to a better Muslim.
I stalk his twitter almost all the time. He only tweets about deen. From that I’m able to trail his activities. Good right? All his activities mostly related to Islamic. He likes to go to Islamic concert and also tazkirah at Masjid Negeri. One of his activities I followed was the Ryhtm of Soul concert, soon to be aired during raya. If I’m not mistaken, it is on the 8th & 9th of September. 11am maybe. You guys are really invited to watch it. I learn to know Opick from the concert. His songs were nice. He put in also all the selawats inside. They managed to tears me down.
As time passed by, I realized that I should not find and close to Allah because of a man. I have to and must change my own perception that I have to love Allah more than everything in this world but not for the sake of a man. Allah will give us the best when we love him sincerely. Allah hears everything that we want. He never disappoints us. Only those who fail to love him will feel their doa were not granted. Never ever find Allah because u need the answer but find Allah because u knew that He is the best answer that we need most.
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