Kerananya aku semakin dekat padaMu

Glad that I met him. I adore his style since before I met him personally. I heard over on his stories from one of his colleague. A man that always protect his Deen. He never showed even once that he is a 'waraq' man. From her appearance, u wouldn’t think he is ‘waraq’. Once u knew him, then u will know how good is he.

I tried to improve myself so that he will look at me. From that time, I learned back how to perform an almost perfect solah. Everyday I bring along the ‘Cara-cara Solat untuk Wanita’ book. It’s quite shame to learn back right? But better than never. Now, I’m grateful that I almost know all the meaning for every movement in my solah. Alhamdulillah.

I also started to read iluvislam.com in order to get me tougher from the Nafs of wanted to getting married early. It’s just because of seeing other people happy with their couple, so it increase my jealousy. I wasn’t supposed to do that right?

During my semester, my keIstiqamahan went down a bit because I did not meet him even once. I always postponed my solah. I feel bad because I changed to a better person just for the purpose of getting his attention towards me.

Now, I’m working. I have plenty of time since I’m not committed to study anymore. My work ends right after working hours end. I have extra hours before night arrived, so can hang out with them.

Every time in my last sujud I will pray to Allah to let me be part of his life. I do not know whether is it ok to ask for that or not but at least I tried. I really hope because it’s hard to find a man like him. Not a smoker and always try to improve himself to a better Muslim.

I stalk his twitter almost all the time. He only tweets about deen. From that I’m able to trail his activities. Good right? All his activities mostly related to Islamic. He likes to go to Islamic concert and also tazkirah at Masjid Negeri. One of his activities I followed was the Ryhtm of Soul concert, soon to be aired during raya. If I’m not mistaken, it is on the 8^th & 9^th of September. 11am maybe. You guys are really invited to watch it. I learn to know Opick from the concert. His songs were nice. He put in also all the selawats inside. They managed to tears me down.

As time passed by, I realized that I should not find and close to Allah because of a man. I have to and must change my own perception that I have to love Allah more than everything in this world but not for the sake of a man. Allah will give us the best when we love him sincerely. Allah hears everything that we want. He never disappoints us. Only those who fail to love him will feel their doa were not granted. Never ever find Allah because u need the answer but find Allah because u knew that He is the best answer that we need most.

Laaah..missing again?

Last time I said my blog was in the Cleaning Process right? Naaahh..I didn't do anything though. It was just a dream to change the header and the sidebars. At last, the result is the same. Haha..

The very last post I did last year was on 31st Jan 2011. That time I was still in my internship period at Deloitte. Right after I finished it in May, we have a wonderful semester break. 3 months babe, load of things to do. Working or Training? I decided to choose training. FOC! cause the government paid for me RM13k. Wah that's a lot.

Sept 2011, I started with my final semester. Yet, this time was the most hectic time. I dont even have my leisure time. Weekends full with discussion. Somehow, it let us be more close to each other (if u fully committed, or else people H u).

2 weeks before final exams start, received a call from Deloitte. They offered me for an Audit Trainee position. Wah, happy! They want me to start immediately even though I havent received my result. Straight away I answered "Yupppppp!"

February 1st, 2012. I started my career in Audit. Later in April my position had been revised to Audit Staff Assistant 2. Happy right? A month before my confirmation as an employee of Deloitte, I sent a letter to HR. Guess what letter? Resignation letter. Am I tense being an auditor? Seriously no. People might think that I resigned because of the pressure. Totally wrong! I was just thinking that I wont go far in audit cause I never put an aim to be one of the audit partners.

July 16th, I reported myself at Sime Darby Global Services Centre Sdn Bhd in Wisma Sime Darby, KL. Now, I am in IT department. My position? Specialist, Business Performance Management (SAP BPC). Panjang kan nak baca. Now, I feel comfortable having my own desk, working with nice people. 2 weeks after, received a call from SD Plantation, offering me a post for Finance Exec. Thanks but no thanks. I don't plan to go deep into accounts. Now, I'm doing IT + Account. Much more interesting.

All I can say is, Thank you Allah for giving me this nikmat. I'm really grateful that you never forget me. I know that You always by my side all the time and forever.