Jangan postpone pahala kita

Baitul Muslim, an event organized by One Heart Creative Solution was a wow event. Rugi siapa tak pergi and those who were in the waiting list. Next time, bear in mind, cepat-cepat booking k. Don't wait for others. If they don't wanna go, no matter how just proceed alone sebab nanti kalau mati pun kubur and amal tak share kan?

What comes to your mind when I say Baitul Muslim? Haaa..I bet everyone mesti cakap "sesuai untuk orang yang nak kahwin". Yupp memang betul pun tapi kalau orang yang belum ade pasangan join pun bertambah-tambah bagus. Why? cause they can start to build their Islamic life first. Tak ada lah orang kate dah terhantuk baru nak tengadah.

A friend of mine making an assumption that I'm just accompanying my sister to the event cause she's getting married soon. Totally wrong. I was the one who wants her to go there too cause I find it important for her to have a balance life, so that she can manage her family well. Having super duper Islamic kids. Everything you do, please please and please fikirkan balik niat dan tujuan. Hanya untuk yang Esa.

I do gain a lot that day. Tipu la kalau tak tido kan. hehe. sorry la for those yang pakai slides, saya mengantuk la..hehe..Speakers mostly mantap-mantap. Memang hebat lah input deorang.

All I can say my journey to have an Islamic family starts from now. Pray that Allah will always guide me and those who willing to learn Islam more to the right path. I'm still in the learning process to improve myself to be a better muslimah.

Previously, when I read stories about Nikah, I can't really understand why a waraq man always mentioned that she married a woman because of Allah. Now, I know better. I want a husband in my life because of Allah. I want to have a perfect life in Jannah. Dunya is a temporary life to test humans, same goes to human love especially before Nikah. Sungguh tak tipu, kesedaran semakin meningkat bila baca this article --> http://www.darulnuman.com/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=62:wanita-yang-menolak-perkahwinan&catid=70:menarik&Itemid=194

Sincerely, I don't really like those yang berkahwin atas alasan nak elak maksiat. Itu adalah salah satu kelebihan berkahwin bukan sebab-sebab berkahwin. The only asset for woman to be in Jannah is marry. Marry to someone with an aim memperjuangkan Islam.

Ok, jom sama-sama mengelamun kejap. selama-lama single ni, kadang kala on and off je kan Qiam. If dah kahwin, each other boleh kejutkan bangun and sama-sama Qiam. Tambah pahala. Aurat wanita pula, tak semua orang mampu betul-betul tutup tapi kalau dah sayangkan suami mesti sanggup tutupkan. See, dosa berkurang dah. Then tarbiyyah kepada anak-anak. Pahala tau. Ni mesti ramai yg dah tau. Didik anak-anak betul-betul ikut cara Islam so that when they grown up, they always remember their FIRST teachers (parents) and for sure with all the love given, they won't forget to always pray for their loves.

See, banyakkan kelebihan berkahwin. Jangan mudah terpedaya bila orang cakap, "Enjoy la life dulu, rugi kahwin awal." Hurmmm rugi lagi kahwin lambat rasanya sbb pahala tu pun nanti kene postpone jugak. Nak enjoy2 nanti tunggu kat syurga la. Apa macam? Jom start collect pahala!

Minta maaf andai terkasar bahasa. Apa yang baik itu semuanya datang dari Allah s.w.t dan yang buruk itu atas kelemahan diri saya sendiri.

Wallahuallam.

Kerananya aku semakin dekat padaMu

Glad that I met him. I adore his style since before I met him personally. I heard over on his stories from one of his colleague. A man that always protect his Deen. He never showed even once that he is a 'waraq' man. From her appearance, u wouldn’t think he is ‘waraq’. Once u knew him, then u will know how good is he.

I tried to improve myself so that he will look at me. From that time, I learned back how to perform an almost perfect solah. Everyday I bring along the ‘Cara-cara Solat untuk Wanita’ book. It’s quite shame to learn back right? But better than never. Now, I’m grateful that I almost know all the meaning for every movement in my solah. Alhamdulillah.

I also started to read iluvislam.com in order to get me tougher from the Nafs of wanted to getting married early. It’s just because of seeing other people happy with their couple, so it increase my jealousy. I wasn’t supposed to do that right?

During my semester, my keIstiqamahan went down a bit because I did not meet him even once. I always postponed my solah. I feel bad because I changed to a better person just for the purpose of getting his attention towards me.

Now, I’m working. I have plenty of time since I’m not committed to study anymore. My work ends right after working hours end. I have extra hours before night arrived, so can hang out with them.

Every time in my last sujud I will pray to Allah to let me be part of his life. I do not know whether is it ok to ask for that or not but at least I tried. I really hope because it’s hard to find a man like him. Not a smoker and always try to improve himself to a better Muslim.

I stalk his twitter almost all the time. He only tweets about deen. From that I’m able to trail his activities. Good right? All his activities mostly related to Islamic. He likes to go to Islamic concert and also tazkirah at Masjid Negeri. One of his activities I followed was the Ryhtm of Soul concert, soon to be aired during raya. If I’m not mistaken, it is on the 8^th & 9^th of September. 11am maybe. You guys are really invited to watch it. I learn to know Opick from the concert. His songs were nice. He put in also all the selawats inside. They managed to tears me down.

As time passed by, I realized that I should not find and close to Allah because of a man. I have to and must change my own perception that I have to love Allah more than everything in this world but not for the sake of a man. Allah will give us the best when we love him sincerely. Allah hears everything that we want. He never disappoints us. Only those who fail to love him will feel their doa were not granted. Never ever find Allah because u need the answer but find Allah because u knew that He is the best answer that we need most.

Laaah..missing again?

Last time I said my blog was in the Cleaning Process right? Naaahh..I didn't do anything though. It was just a dream to change the header and the sidebars. At last, the result is the same. Haha..

The very last post I did last year was on 31st Jan 2011. That time I was still in my internship period at Deloitte. Right after I finished it in May, we have a wonderful semester break. 3 months babe, load of things to do. Working or Training? I decided to choose training. FOC! cause the government paid for me RM13k. Wah that's a lot.

Sept 2011, I started with my final semester. Yet, this time was the most hectic time. I dont even have my leisure time. Weekends full with discussion. Somehow, it let us be more close to each other (if u fully committed, or else people H u).

2 weeks before final exams start, received a call from Deloitte. They offered me for an Audit Trainee position. Wah, happy! They want me to start immediately even though I havent received my result. Straight away I answered "Yupppppp!"

February 1st, 2012. I started my career in Audit. Later in April my position had been revised to Audit Staff Assistant 2. Happy right? A month before my confirmation as an employee of Deloitte, I sent a letter to HR. Guess what letter? Resignation letter. Am I tense being an auditor? Seriously no. People might think that I resigned because of the pressure. Totally wrong! I was just thinking that I wont go far in audit cause I never put an aim to be one of the audit partners.

July 16th, I reported myself at Sime Darby Global Services Centre Sdn Bhd in Wisma Sime Darby, KL. Now, I am in IT department. My position? Specialist, Business Performance Management (SAP BPC). Panjang kan nak baca. Now, I feel comfortable having my own desk, working with nice people. 2 weeks after, received a call from SD Plantation, offering me a post for Finance Exec. Thanks but no thanks. I don't plan to go deep into accounts. Now, I'm doing IT + Account. Much more interesting.

All I can say is, Thank you Allah for giving me this nikmat. I'm really grateful that you never forget me. I know that You always by my side all the time and forever.

I'm back!

Been a long time haven't updated my blog. Berhabuknye.. I think I shud clean it up abit. The latest one was in 2011, January? Now dah 2012 July. Lame dah tinggalkan dunia penulisan rupanya. Perhaps after this you guys will see me updating my blog frequently. Don't be rimas with me ok cause I have alot of things to tell you dear readers.


.......................CLEANING PROGRESS..........................

It was just 2 months!!

2 months being in corporate world.
4 months to go.
hope it ends well.

January said bye2.
February said hye2.

same goes to my age.
bye-bye 20.
i will meet a new one called 21.

I know that I can never make u happy

Pengorbanan itu menyakitkan
Pengorbanan itu menyeksakan
Pengorbanan itu membinasakan
Pengorbanan itu sia-sia

Even though we were being separated since ramadhan till Dec 19,
I never hate u..I care about u..I hope u were at home all the time.
3 weeks u are in Malaysia, I always plan something that can make u happy.

U said to me before that I will be ur driver, but then I'm currently working. No leave can be made for the interns. I did something bad just to make u happy. In returns, I got nothing. Just the 'ketakutan' covered my whole day and body. I can only bring u out at night or weekends only but u never want to understand me.

People makes mistakes. If I was rude to u don't take into heart. Confront me. I hate people talking behind my back.

Yesterday, I went back home at 6.30pm. I asked u and the others to accompany me to SACC but no one wants. I went to the bank alone, withdrew my allowance just to treat u and the others. I purposely bought u a slice of strawberry marshmallow cake and the others big apple's donuts but no one cares what i'm doing. I waited for almost 1 hour there just to get a fresh donuts. I went around all the shop lots alone. I hate walking here and there alone. End up, when I bring all the foods back home, nobody seems very interested. Disappointment covered my body again. My effort to make people happy worthless, priceless.

I sewed for u 2 baju kurungs but u seems not happy with that. U seems not going to bring back ur baju kurung. Sorry, I can't make a perfect baju kurung since I don't know how to sew the kain part.

Today is the holiday. I asked u for an outing at pyramid, but then u didn't said anything but u went to follow the other sister of yours to seri kembangan. Upset. I feel upset.

U said u don't wanna go to penang because u don't feel good. but u never thought of ur cousins that are waiting for u. u never thought of sending ur lil brother back to campus. at least he feels more spiritual to study hard. All u think is ur plan with ur other sister. Truly from my heart I wanna stay home too because I wanna be with u all but then, I don't feel it is a good idea because I will ruin all ur plans, so I decided to follow my parents to penang and see all my cousins. At least, i don't feel that terrible.

But somehow I feel great that u did this to me because I know I won't miss u that much when I send u back at the airport. I know tears won't fall down from my sepet eyes because I know I am just a black sheep in the family that always being left out by others.

Thanx for doing this to me. I love u so much even though u hated me.

Happy New Year everyone.

That old women really pissed me off!

I'm working today!!

I've been working for 4 days since 1 Dec.
Since the first day, I did filing.
Today also, I'm gonna do the filing but..

How about tomorrow?
Do I really have the chance to be like a Tax Assistant?

Oh by the way, I am a Vacation Trainee.
They call the interns as the VTs but not CHEAP LABOR!
It pissed me off.
We know we're being paid at the lowest cost.

We care about EXPERIENCE! not the ALLOWANCE!
Take note of that old lady!